i'll be leaving jakarta again in four days. no, im not going to go to sydney, or some luxurious places, im going to go to logantung, a remote village in centre of java. you cant even find that place in your map, your gps, or even your google earth. hahah.. it's kind of place where you have to walk till your legs bruised just to get some effing water. and when you are on your way back, the water has spilt along the way and nothing is remained. it's kind of place where you have to go across bushes and tall trees and stuffs to reach a toilet. we technically cant call it toilet, though. it doesnt have door and roof. it's just a hole in the ground for you to put your shit. and if you re not a good shooter, your shit might be sprawling around. disgusting. eww. poor you. ohh, poor me!
dont forget my birthday is on first of sept. holyshiiiiit! i dont think havin birthday with strangers in some uncool place where all you can do is pushing a cow is a good idea. it's not something i imagine doing in my birthday.
and my little slut, my bff, my other half, my beste cheesecake, my pal for life is leaving for seattle on 4th of sept, which means i cant take her to the airport and do some -goodbye mate, i will miss you like hell, take care and dont get pregnant there- kind of thing. im supeeeeerrrrrr saaaaddddd :(( and now i vaguely avoid her. this is how my body and mind give respond to seperation. i know it's so childish, and immature, and fucking cruel.
i just hope by doing this, i can handle goodbye. and i can pretend not to feel like my heart is torn apart when the time comes. it's my all-time silly theory, i know. i do this all for good. amen.
Labels: sadddiiee
